Got some new shoes today, technically for my birthday last week.
I have to be honest, I’m not sure how I feel about them, and that’s a problem. Not just because they were a very wonderful thoughtful gift, but because it’s a symptom.
I’m constantly having to adjudicate myself, address myself, and consider the way I’m presenting myself when I’m at the park. We’re not just talking issues of professionalism. I work for a Fortune 500 company in real life. I know professional. But I have to be so careful that I’m not giving off an air of “I’m just here for the boys.” or that’s all I’ll be judged on.
Heck, it’s all I’ve been judged on, sometimes.
But that I’m sitting here thinking “I can’t wear my new baseball-themed flats to a game because of what it might say about me in the minds of outside observers…”
I’m not sure how I feel about that.